<p>My mind wanders and then I catch it<br />
Dark thoughts perpetuate<br />
I set them on fire, and for a moment<br />
They burn with fury.<br />
My mind ablaze in retrospect<br />
Until I scatter the ashes<br />
Leaving my heart cold again<br />
I&#8217;m tranquil but numb<br />
Like frozen from waiting too long</p>
<p>A light far ahead glimmers<br />
Giving me hope once again<br />
This cycle won&#8217;t persist much longer<br />
I&#8217;ll either change for the better<br />
Or spin out of control</p>
<p>I hold on to thoughts of love<br />
Grabbing at the distant strands of light.</p>
<hr />
<p><strong>RETROSPECT</strong> by <a href="https://www.instagram.com/hunterisok/">Hunter T.</a></p>
<p><em>Hunter T. is an openly transgender army veteran currently living in Los Angeles.</em></p>
<p>Instagram: <a href="https://www.instagram.com/hunterisok/">https://www.instagram.com/hunterisok/</a></p>
<figure id="attachment_6070" aria-describedby="caption-attachment-6070" style="width: 460px" class="wp-caption alignnone"><img class="alignnone size-full wp-image-6070" src="https://rockthepigeon.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/01/cold-cold-heart-l-r1mysl.jpeg" alt="cold-cold-heart-l-r1mysl" width="460" height="348" /><figcaption id="caption-attachment-6070" class="wp-caption-text"><span class="irc_su" dir="ltr">Snow Heart in a Tree&#8217;s Embrace (from http://divinetheatre.blogspot.</span></figcaption></figure>
<p> ;</p>